It is March 2018, and right now my life has never been more settled, and I’ve never been as happy since April 2012 to November 2013. That time period was the last time I felt truly happy – in that time I got together with my now husband, got engaged to him, my work, festivals…
Last year I was heavily inspired by a Facebook update from one of my good friends who was a huge help to me as a volunteer for the first ever Worcestershire Literary Festival that I founded and ran back in 2011. So inspired I was by this post that I posted a comment on it…
I know, I know….I have not been as good as updating this blog recently. This is one project where my Libran indecisiveness, which I have in abundance, has been very much at play and over the last year I’ve had a strong should I/shouldn’t I write in it and update it mentality. I’m busy working…
It is now 4 days PC (post Curley) and it is only now that I feel able to write about how I feel. What I’m about to say may shock some of you reading this, although some of you will hopefully understand it. How I feel about losing my Curley is right up there with…
Dear Frankie, At 7.27pm last Friday night you were probably greeted with the sight of a young German Shepherd running towards you with a big smile on her face and wagging her tail. You didn’t get to see her, but you heard her barking and felt her head resting against you when you were in…
I know there has been a long gap since I last posted on here, but I’m going through one of the hardest times that I’ve been through since losing Frankie. The last two weeks have been very hard indeed, and yesterday they culminated in me and my husband having to make the absolutely heart breaking…
I remember reading somewhere on the internet, I can’t remember where though, about The Kübler-Ross model, otherwise known as “the five stages of grief”. This model is a series of emotional stages by survivors of grief and death, and the 5 stages according to the model are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. For some…
In 1971 a young woman died at the age of 20. She left behind a husband, a two year old daughter, and a journal of tape recordings. A journal that told what it was to be young, and a mother, and in love…and dying. The names of the people in her life have been changed,…
Frankie’s funeral was on Thursday 5th December 2013. On Friday 6th December 2013 the funeral directors A V Band brought him home. He has been with us ever since in his room, surrounded by some things to keep him safe – a German Shepherd toy that looks like Curley to guard him, a St Christopher…
Last night my husband and I decided that we would have my parents round for a roast dinner, and we also invited two of our close friends to join us, Harry* and Sarah*. I’ve known Harry since 1995 when my ex-husband and I moved into our first house together (we got married in August 1996). …
As many of you who read this blog on a regular basis knows, last year was definitely my “annus horribilis”. In 1992 The Queen first coined the phrase when there was a fire at Windsor Castle, Charles and Diana’s marriage was in dire straits and the popularity of the Royal Family was at rock bottom.…
Dear Frankie, My precious son in heaven, today you are 14 months old. It feels like only yesterday that the midwife was telling to push and to push hard, and at 4.43am on Friday 29th November 2013 you were born and placed on my chest. Despite having an epidural and being so very tired from…
It had to happen. I was at work today getting on with my job, dealing with emails, phone calls and writing a report following a lunch meeting I had to attend in London yesterday and then BANG!! An announcement arrived via my work email – an announcement that I wasn’t expecting and that hit me…
I’m feeling a bit low today, so this sums how how I’m feeling at the moment:
I’m read a blog called “Headspace Perspective” – http://www.headspace-perspective.com – on a regular basis. The author, Leigh Kendall, is mummy to Hugo who was very sadly born premature and lived for just a few weeks because she developed HELLP Syndrome and pre-eclampsia while she was pregnant with him and she blogs on a regular basis…
Happy new year everyone, I hope you all had a good Christmas and New Year. I am, quite frankly, very glad to see the back of 2014, and not just because of losing Frankie. The whole year was a series of things happening with one thing after another after another going wrong, with no let-up…
Frankie's Legacy: Love, Loss Grief & Recovery 